I have just sat down and begun to have a drink of Woodstock Bourbon & Cola, because I don't have my kids for the second time in two months. Me and my old drinking buddy have decided to go out tonight and drink it up, and it has got me reminiscing about the good old days of my youth.

How sad is it that I am reminiscing about my youth, when I am only 25 years old? Very.

At one point, I have to admit that I used to be a massive drunk when I was younger, and at one point in time, I was drinking heavily every day for about four months from just after lunch to way past midnight. Hell, it usually took me the entire time to actually get drunk because of my high tolerance to alcohol. 

The rest of the time, I was either sleeping, or sitting on IRC whilst coping with a hangover and talking to friends from overseas. I wish I had the old chat logs still, they were classic, especially the time I feel asleep and my head rolled around on the keyboard for about two hours. This point was also the time when I created a few games that were meant to be completely stupid, and which received scathing reviews from anyone who didn't get the point that I didn't give a fuck.

But those days are gone. I can still drink massive amounts and not get drunk, but the occasion to do so is very rare. The bad thing for me is that I cannot stomach beer, leaving me to drink nothing but spirits. I wish I could drink beer, but haven't be able to physically stomach it since I was about 17 when I drank an entire case by myself at a party.

It is amazing how things can change once you become a father, and your life changes socially. You can't do shit. Either it is because you need to take care of the kids, and you don't have anyone to babysit… or it is because you are almost flat broke because of paying for things that the kids need.

I don't mind doing the whole dad thing, but sometimes I wish I could just go out at a moments notice, and get absolutely fucking hammered.